A weak Moment. More like Evening

It started off with a couple of spoon fulls of waffle cone ice cream. :(

Just went down from there. I started finding little pieces of chocolate that my wife "hides" so that she can have her guilty pleasures fulfilled. I tried to take away some of the guilt I was having by bringing her one of the pieces I had found.

I just kept eating and eating and didn't know why.  It wasn't until this morning visiting with my brother when he said it happens to him late at night. He starts to eat to try to stay awake and watch TV.

So from now on. I will be going to bed if I don't have a project to work  on and you can't eat while sleeping. Unless of course you are a sleep eater. HMMM

What do you do to control what you eat in the evening? Or anytime for that matter?

Hey, I'm Jenn

Hey! I'm Jenn... a 38 year old single mom raising 4 young children while going to school full time.  My reasons for being here are, first; my kiddos.  I want to run and play with them and not feel exhausted.  Second; I'm determined to run an obstacle race next spring, preferably the Spartan.   And third; yes, I admit it, I want a bangin' bod... don't we all???   

Trained in ballet and modern dance for 15 years and very physically active with water skiing, cross country skiing, hiking, aerobics, mountain biking, rollerblading and morning runs along the river... all before my heart stopped in December 1999.  I was 25, the doctors couldn't explain it so I was restricted from exercise, told not to walk more than ½ a block at a time. 

By January of 2008 I'd visited the ER three more times with no answers and gained around 40-50 lbs within a matter of weeks after each episode.  I baffled the doctor's with the gain, my weight ballooning to 220 lbs at one point.  Since I was restricted from perusing weight loss it'd take months to shed the pounds each time. 

In June 2011 I was officially divorced and tried to move on.  Now, 1 ½ years later, I'm finding myself in court repeatedly.  The stress from it all is attacking my body; through weight gain, physical pain, tiredness, insomnia, skin problems, extreme anemia, low vitamin D and emotional distress.  Due to all of this I forget to eat and struggle to intake 600-800 calories a day... so why am I overweight?  That's the question I asked and am hoping to find an answer for.  In the meantime.... 

I begged my doctor to allow me to exercise.  He agreed if I took it slow!!! I began walking with my awesome friend Christine. 2 to 8 miles every morning.  I felt amazing as I began seeing a huge improvement with my physical pain, tiredness and distress.  From there we set the goal of running the Spartan in the spring... and here I am, using this blog to be accountable so I don't slack off. 

My strategy... use P90X and Insanity, continue walking with Christine and change up my diet by adding more fruits and veggies to the mix... I'll also be working with my doctor. 

DR. BAKERS PROFILE

We will Be featuring one of the Fat Bottomed bloggers each day this week. I know it is a terrible week to start eating and living healthy but we will do it anyway!

This bio should include (not limited to) the following:

Weight - why you weigh what you do

- Why do you want to change your body

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I weigh this because I love to eat and love to relax. I also love the Sushi House in American Fork. lol. 

I want to change this because I do not see myself as this weight. I know that I can be healthier. My father also has diabetes, kidney disease and is on dialysis all at the age of 60. Being healthy has to be a life style and not a hope.  
Obstacles - 
- what has made you unsuccessful in the past * excuses, health issues etc.

I have lots of reasons for not succeeding in my health. One...its expensive to eat well and work out. I also don't have time. I need to work. I also need sleep. I don't have people to motivate me. I could work out tomorrow. I am too fat to go work out. lol. Should I go on. I have done many diets, but eating is just more fun and less work. :)

Goals - 

Be specific - I will not eat any candy this week, or soda etc.

I will need to create some of these and stick to them. 

Weight goal - put in your mind and on paper (web) what you think your ideal weight would be

I guess my ideal weight is 230. I really don't care what I weigh as long as I look healthy, feel healthy and can keep up with my kid. 

THIS PART IS VERY, VERY important - Write a Paragraph of how you are going to feel and the things you are going to do when you have reached your main goal. VERY IMPORTANT - Dr. Steve Baker could you enlighten us a little on this part. I know you have history in this type of motivational tool

Reaching my goal would leave me knowing myself as successful in all areas of my life. You know those areas that you want to alter,but don't want to do the work...this is that area. When I reach my health goal I will know myself as being able to complete anything I put my mind to. I would be being empowered, present and in love.

Life would be like this. 

I would wake up in life knowing my self as successful. I would be working out multiple times per week. Meals would be planned and I would have the body that emulates my power and self expression. I would be able to run 12 miles if I want. go hiking with friends or go mountain biking and not be worried about being left behind. I would Kayak down the Provo river like a PRO.  Exercise would be a part of life instead of something to fit into life.  
Please Respond with any advice or questions you might have in the comment section below.